Hello i'm not exactly sure if im suffering depression but my friends keep saying i need to talk to someone. and i dont want to. I feel underestimated as people who know i cut/scratch deep my wrists say why do you do it? You have a perfect life...and i just feel everyones judged me. And im afraid to come out as a person no one likes. Ihate how people think they know everything about me. Because they don't. I sit in my room everyday and cry and mainly hurt myself. Because i have so much anger and sadness i dont show. I dont ever tell anyone how i feel. Because i'll be judged. So the only way for me to let it out is by hurting myself. I always cause arguments at home and never want to be with anyone at home. I just shout and act off with my parents. i dont talk to my brother because hes already having problems of his own. I recently get down all the time and if a small thing winds me up, i explode, i just become a bomb of anger and refuse to do work. I never eat breakfast. Today I got so angry in textiles i refused to do work and broke all my pens and stuck my hand in the pins and i almost got sent out because i got annoyed with my teacher. I was so tempted to end my time a few days ago and i wrote a suicidle note through text to my bestfriend but i didnt send it. I dont like telling my friends how i feel i just fake a smile each day. i get home and want to smash and break things and hurt myself for everything i do wrong. I just hate my life. please help