I have the habit of thinking about unfortunate events like losing my friend...or arguing with some of my friends. I want to forget and move on. I still keep in touch with one of my friends although I don't really like to. But I have to because she was there for me alot of times. And maybe the reason why I think about that friend I don't talk to anymore is because she knows my secrets and I'm afraid she'll tell everyone. Or maybe I did not get to say anything to her when she attacked me.