I am so upset with my self I lost 45 years of my life doing nothing work clean the house raise kids and now I am still raising grandchildren. My son lives with us and that's not going well because he thinks he's the boss my daughter is a drug addict. my son does drugs here and there. I don't want to clean the house anymore I've been looking for a full time job but maybe i'm to old 59 I feel I have nothing and depress but that doesn't me anything because nothing is going well. my life suck all the way around. I actually really wish something would happen to make me happy because the only thime that I can say I was ever happy was when I gave birth to my first child and even my daughter as me about 7 years ago "have you ever been happy and my reponse was the day I had you. what is wrong with me thinking of my life going now where.