I have been suffering from anxiety attacks and suicidal thoughts. However, these attacks only really seem to arise when I conversate with my boyfriend, who quickly reminds me that I am an annoyance and an irritation. Those and other negative comments always make my anxiety attacks worse and I don t know how to stop them. This partner makes me feel like it s my fault and that I am making his life more stressful and unbearable and that I shouldn t be sharing these anxiety type thoughts with him especially when I talk about numbing myself with medication. I think I do this to get his attention but it is only backfiring and making me feel extremely guilty and thus increasing my anxiety. I have tried to get out and talk with other friends but I end up feeling guilty and ashamed again because it may be construed as dating or gossiping. I am not sure if I have provided enough information or if this is more a psychological rather than medical issue but I need to talk to someone who will not call me crazy.