I am a 62 year old vietnam veteran , i have had three heart attacks , and recently been in a coma for 26 days. I have high blood pressure , diabeties and am taking insulan , also i have arthritis and am bipolar disease. I have many pre strokes and three major strokes. My right side of my body is nearly useless with aside of tingling almost no feeling. Right now i am bedridden. I believe the va is using me as an experiment , they become very irratated when i stay away from them when. I have been measured with an extremly high iq. What can i do to recover and stop the intense pain short of suicide?