I have past 15 years a problem .The problem doctors describe ocd. As I m always indulged with irrational thoughts .After taking counciling with msf/kashmir life ngo besides taking medicine I feel little bit good but my personal life is disturbed it has become hell. I have taken fkeximine, inosert, desdip od etc. I take it maximum 8 months after that doctors gradually lower dose ..but irrational thoughts come back ..I always do meditation and busy my self but all in vain .. I usually don t complete dose I myself lower dose and stop medicine as due to stomach pains I was not able to eat anything doctors only give me omeparizole and pentop-40 but that doesn t work ..It is impossible for me to take such medicines as it destroys my every organ the most important is stomach problem. The thoughts which disturbs me which doctors called irrational are when ever I read any thing I get confused I think I haven t read this problem happens with most common words .I start reading again and again and start doing pronunciation. I feel inferiority complex about my personality in spite I m very handsome. I get irritated with dirt nd people of poor personality .I get confused while doing calculations .When I gard death news any one around our area and if the deceased are old I get irritated if deceased b young it doesn t irritate me ..lastly I heard about doctor sushil Razdan ..I have hope I will b ok this is my last try ..pls I m from kashmir I need appointment. .Help me