Hii.Dr it's a long qstn.. plss read nd suggest me a solution.
Im Arun an engg student. In ma childhood days,I wish to wore girls dresses.And to some extent my parents allowed me to wear.Bt whn I grew up they strictly prohibited me to wear girl's dress.Bt I made towel as saree nd started wearing it whn no one is near to me.Many of ma cousins nd parents noticed that.They beat me.Bt I didn't change.Till my teenage.In my school days I get harassed by ma frnds coz of ma voice..It sounds like girls.whn l grew up my voice didn't change, bt all other teenage changes occurred..I was got that much harassed..I started thinking of suicide too.bt later l find its nt the solution.it wil hurt my parents nd loved ones a lot.In my higher secondary school I became a silent one coz I fear that if anyone notices my sound,so I dnt had gd frnds.In this time I get attracted to gay sex too..I had sex with my neighbor.The two yr we had sex 2-3 times..Then I avoided him.I need to change frm that.Aftr ma +2 I got admission in a far away college.I decides to go.coz of two reasons, one I need to change the atmosphere nd second I dnt like to b a silent one as in my +2.I want to njoy ma clge life.so l became friendly to evryone..nw evryone started noticing my girlishness.I dnt know wht to do.to live or quit frm my life.l read through voice therapy sound can be changed..bt it won't be the right solution.Nw I think of changing my clge too..b4 one mnth I was the happiest man in the world..bt nw.. evrythng had been changed..I loved my clge more than anyone.bt nw I hav to go.I can't stick on hear.plss tell me a solution..