Hi,
I'm a 15 year old male who's really confused on their sexuality. For most of my life I have assumed and always thought I was straight. It wasn't until freshman year of high school that I began to question my sexual orientation. At first I shrugged it off, until I explored it a bit further and ended up fantasizing one. I felt disgusted after and began to fear I was a homosexual. However time passed and so did the thoughts. Later on that year I experienced an enormous period of grief over whether or not I was gay. I would have sleepless nights constantly debating with myself over my sexuality and felt even more guilty and disgusted over my now growing same sex fantasies. Beginning of sophomore year, my period of grief had ended as well as most of my same sex fantasies and I decided to label myself 80 straight 20 gay (basically heteroflexible). However early on there was a new boy in my class that I felt a good amount of attraction for. The once subsided fantasies were now back and I once again became very confused over determining my sexuality. I have always thought I have liked girls, until these fantasies and random traumatizing gay thoughts pop up inside my brain. I never would want to date a guy and always have wanted and still want to date a girl, but this boy made my head spin and I'm very confused. Can you help me understand what's going on with me?