Hello I am a 47-year-old who is wondering if I might have undergone a nervous breakdown. I have done several odd things and had many many stressors that have come into my life. At this point I cannot even open my mail and havnt been since over a year ago . I can only do like one small thing at a time dishes grocery shopping etc. most of the time. I haven't had the luxury of running ( even though I thought about it) away because I have two animals that I am very close to them, they are the only friends I have. I have seem to run off all my other ones Due to my odd behavior. In May 2013 my husband and I decided to get a divorce. I am very ill already I have been checked for MS CFS and do definitely have fibromyalgia failed back syndrome, chronic pain and Arachnoiditis. However nobody seems to address at the Fatique that I'm having. After my husband left I dated the love of my life from when I was very young and it turned out that they were bipolar and very physically abusive as well as mentally. I was going through a lot of financial issues and problems I lost my main source of income in Feb of 2014 and since only have enough income to pay my mortgage and nothing else at all. Then I had a house fire in July of last year and had to deal with that. however the fatigue was beginning to get worse and was so bad that I stayed in a hotel for eight months over a $3000 small house fire. I've also lost all of my friends specifically my best friend for 43 years due to my bursting out an odd behavior. I didn't have many friends as it was because my husband and I kept to ourselves and I haven't been able to make any new ones I didn't really want any but now I just stay in the bed all the time it seems. I have a great house that I'm about to lose it was my house when I grew up, but due to my financial problems I have until May to do something, possibly go into a facility. and turn all of my assets over to the state. I also went through a trial because I had a DUI where I had a small accident and I hit my head and went to the hospital where they checked me for concussion. The police was called and because I am a chronic pain patient I was on my medication that I had been on for almost 5 years. So of course I was going to show positive for my medications. That didn't stop them for siteing me and while my attorney thinks he can get it appealed I still had to go through a trial which I lost and I think it was during the trial in September of last year that I just broke down. I can't get diagnosed with MS or even chronic fatigue I don't know who to see or what to ask my doctors. It's like they all know that I lost my primary income from my LTD from my old job due to the fact that they say that I could go back to work. I know if I tried to go back to work that all I would do burnt Bridge and I wouldn't be able to cope. now especially and even before All of this came up I couldn't. . On top of all of the other stressors that you see here I have also had to change my chronic pain doctor three times over the past two years because they had been closing all the doctors down here. Every time I had to change to a new doctor they would not keep me on the same medication or keep the same amount and now not only am I hurting more and can't get out of bed because of that I have got all of these other stressors and depression going on. I am at a loss I don't know what to do or who to turn to. I had somebody who stayed with me that didn't work out but during the time she was here it helped but I can't afford to pay anyone obviously. I did it in Leiu of rent kind of.

All I do now is cry when I wake up, I have diabetes and I can't seem to keep my sugar level normal I think that might add to my fatigue as well but I can't imagine it being the only thing. Then I have really bad neuropathy in my feet that causes them to be in bad pain too. I will stop harping on all of my medical issues but I wanted you to know that I have several that could be attributed to the fatigue. I'm just so confused about who I am and who I was or versus who I was and I don't know who to turn to in my life. I guess one last issue is that I have had diagnosed is that I have a clogged artery. I was thinking that might cause me to be fatigued as well.