i do not know how and why it started ......one day during my puberty (when i was around 13 or 14 years old) i felt strangely the manner in which i had never felt before.....i started feeling strong urge of wearing clothes of opposite sex(females). I do not know the reason behind it. Although in the last 10 years i had cross dressed for hardly 5 times but urge to do so(cross dressing) still present till now. Sometimes i feel strong urge to become genetic woman but on most of the occasions (approximately 90% of times) i hate these thoughts of cross dressing and feel guilt due to them. I was attracted towards a girl in my school days when i was 16 years old but i am unable to propose her due to my unwanted fantasy. For me cross dressing or being female is more mental(psychological) thing than physical(physiological). In terms of Freudian(psychoanalytic) psychology my id impulse of cross dressing(or becoming genetic woman) is very strong .......my superego of doing socially productive work is also very strong.......but my my ego(working on reality principle) is very weak .....on most of the occasions it is my ego which gets suppressed(damaged) under the strong influence of id impulse and superego. Please help me doctor to get rid of this unwanted fantasy which is effecting my personal as well as professional life. Thanking you in advance for your help.