I am very sorry to hear you are going through this. Based on what you described, it is likely you are depressed. It is very important that you seek help as soon as possible. Your condition needs to be treated and the treatment should not be delayed. It is disheartening to hear that your mother is not willing to accept your condition. It might be helpful if you showed her this website: http://helpguide.org/mental/depression_teen.htm It has information on the signs of teenage depression and why it should be treated. This should help her understand your condition. If you are able to convince your mother you need help, and you are ready to receive help, I recommend the following websites: http://www.aacap.org/cs/root/child_and_adolescent_psychiatrist_finder/child_and_adolescent_psychiatrist_finder and http://locator.apa.org/ The first website is a psychiatrist locator, and the second is a psychologist locator. A psychiatrist is able to prescribe depression medicines. A psychologist provides therapy sessions in which you discuss your condition and talk about ways to manage it. Finding either one is a good starting place. I hope this helps and I hope you feel well soon.