I feel lost , tired and scared. I have been dealing with my ex s anger and judgment for a very long time. At first we were best friends and I felt that we had a connection of love and trust. He promised to always be there for me, that he would never have gone as far as he did if it wasn t for me and we have sacrificed a lot together as he advanced in his naval career and CHP career. I put my goals on hold to raise our family and to make sure he didn t have to worry about the running of our house hold. I did not mind because I wanted the best future for my ex and our children and thought we would grow and be close always. I didn t see the signs until he left and we got a divorce. I found out that he cheated on me throughout our entire relationship and was continuing his same pattern. I fell into his trap of sleeping with him because he would tell me if we didn t fight so much and learned to get a long we would still be together and after he left I felt worse about my self and my family being broken apart. After a year of confusion and seeing the many women come and go from his life I finally took charge of my life and cut him off and kept everything by the book and followed the court orders. That s when things got worse he began dating a woman and he would email me how great she is and how I m hurting our children because I can t get along and hang out with them. I ignored it but then my children were being dragged into the emails. He would email me asking me about appointments or questions he already knew. He will tell my children that they need to let me be happy and have a boyfriend. He would take clothes and say they disappeared or the kids lost them, putting me in the position to have to buy clothes to replace. The list can go on, I feel sad because the way he approaches matters, they feel like an attack to put me down or rub in my face or to hurt me through our children. Just recently I was cited a trespassing ticket because my ex s wife wouldn t give my children their jackets and I called an officer to see if they can get their jackets. The officer brought out their jackets that I had sent them to school in but, the wife claimed that everything I had said but, the opposite it was I who was taking clothes and not returning them. When I have my children things are peaceful unless he calls and he interrogates our children by asking them where they go with me, who is there, what I feed them and if they miss him. When my children visit their father, things are difficult, I don t call so there is no pressure on our kids visiting and when I pick them up something is always done as a game( a missing backpack, jacket, new pants replaced by old pants, etc...). I wish I knew what I could do to have him stop sending me emails that don t pertain to our children rather they pertain to having an opportunity to say I spoke with our daughter and she said she has her own room and her brother has her own room but she said you are roommates, which I find inappropriate as the many men that sleep in your bed our daughter shouldn t be sleeping on as well . I m a full time mother who volunteers at my church along with Girl Scouts and I m not trying to sound like a saint but from the life I had with my ex I don t want to be in another relationship. Because, I m a full time college student building to earn a career a long with I find comfort in bonding with my children and the time I get to spend with them without judgment and having unconditional love. I feel so stressed with having to be brought back to court with false accusations as a mother and seeing that my children s father saying that I attack him, yet it is he who is attacking.