Hello dear, I am also from India.I want to advice you to take some antidepressants first to get some better feeling after consulting your doctor.You deserve help no matter what.I advice counselling as counselling will focus on your immediate difficulties and help you with problem solving skills.You must see a counseller once a week at very short period.Along with counselling psychotherapy,cognitive behavioural therapies also have good impact to treat you.You are very brave and thats great to hear that you are searching for treatment by yourself as you want to be normal soon.Dont be panic for anything think about your future and your family as there is a lot infront of you.And we in our india we have lots and lots of places to visit.You can always spend some time with your loved ones to get your mind some relaxation.All the best for your life and may god bless you with his love.Thank you.