Thank you very much for contacting healthcare magic. I understand your problem..... You have problem of depression that can treated by cognitive behaviour therapy and counselling... Consent a psychiatrist for further treatment. Antidepressants drugs can use for short period of time. Behaviour therapy is alter your thinking and decrease negative thoughts..... Family support is helpful in depression. Yoga and meditation is helpful to you.. Don t think about past ...Think about your bright future..... Do a activity which give you a happiness. I hope my guidance helpful to you.. Take care. Thank you.