Dear Welcome to HCM We understand your concerns I went through your details. I suggest you not to worry much. If the symptoms you gave here are correct, then you could be troubled with a mental disorder named Anxiety disorder. This is not a phobic episode. Anxiety could be due to different reasons. You could be anxious and apprehensive to some future possibilities but not for every future happenings. Understanding anxiety an the reasons behind present anxiety is the key. Once identified, psychotherapy techniques should help you to overcome or manage the anxiety. Desensitization therapy helps to remove the anxiety and fear. Consult a psychologist/psychotherapist. If you need more of my services, please post a direct question to me in this website. I am happy to serve your purpose. Hope this answers your query. Available for further clarifications. Good luck.