Hello and welcome to Healthcare Magic. Thanks for your query. I understand that you are going through a very difficult time and are feeling hopeless and suicidal. From the description of your problem, it appears that you are going through a depressive phase. This is what is making you feel dejected, hopeless and not worth living. Since you are having such severe depressive thoughts and suicidal ideation, I would suggest that you speak to someone immediately about this. You can share your feelings with a close friend or relative or can even call the suicide helpline in your place. Even though things seem very hopeless and negative, I m sure that with professional help you will be able to overcome this depressive phase soon. There is help available in the form of anti-depressant medication and counselling which can mitigate your symptoms. So, please don t hesitate to seek professional help immediately. Wish you all the best. Regards, Dr. Jonas Sundarakumar Consultant Psychiatrist