hi i am 52 yrs of age, my doctor told me i have clinical depression, i am often crying, some of the times tears can't come, a sudden feeling of sadness, i start sweating,tightness in my throat. my mom died by committing suicide when i was 18 yrs of age, i miss my mom so much. i am scared of telling my kids or rather my family i don't think the will understand and i am also afraid to go to get help (therapy) because i am afraid it will follow me. my doctor prescribed medication to me but it makes me feel worst then i stop taking it.