Welcome to HCM
We understand your concerns
I went through your problem descriptions. I do find the situation pathetic. But I shall blame the treatment method you undergone for depression
even though you are prescribed with the right medication and you are getting relief.
Time and again it has been proved that medications alone cannot cure the condition of depression because depression is not a disease, but a mental state. Change in the life style and chnge in thinking pattern are essential. That is why we prescribe psychotherapy
and yogic meditation
practice. Both the above methods streamlines body and its metabolism
and thinking pattern. Also changes the way you look life. Do find a psychotherapist who can help you.
Hope this answers your query. Availble for further clarifications.