I am a licensed nurse, not currently working to stay home and raise my kids. I began self medicating many years ago mainly for increasing anxiety. I have been in treatment twice for hydrocodone addiction. So, I know all the tools needed to stay off of this, but I just cannot make it through the withdrawals this time. It is the worst it has ever been and I know if I could make it about 5 days it would get better and I would be so happy with myself and just really done. My last treatment I was on Suboxone from Sept. 2012-March 2013, but the more horror stories I read about getting off of that I got scared and of course to stop the Subs I had to go back to hydrocodone. I want this more than I have ever wanted anything and am very strong, I know that I have to be sick in order to get well, I just will not tolerate the full-blown agony and panic attacks again. So, my question is there anything I can take or do at home to get through these few days and get my life back? I have tried clonidine, Thomas recipe, even alcohol and marijuana and none of these help at all. Is it possible to use the Suboxone just for the few horrible days without become physically dependant on that? I have the psychological addiction beat, I feel 100% confident of this, but I cannot be that physically sick. If someone, anyone could help me past the first week, I know what to do after that. Any advice or assistance I would appreciate greatly.