I have chronic menieres and am labrinythectomised. It has been ten years now and I have about 3 attacks a week. My life is worthless I am only here until my parents pass and I will take my existance as it is not a life away. It has now been over 2 weeks since I ate anything that stayed down. I can go 6 weeks without food. I do not have an eating disorder as I try anything to keep it down. My weight loss is small and to quote my dr I am hardly wasting away. I am on 30mg sterioids a day which I believe keep me stable. I am allowed ondanestron for special; occasions holiday, my wedding (but I ate nothing for a week and even at the wedding). I am very confused, forget my kids are adiults and after an attack think it is aboiit 1988 and they were small. I also think my child has been stolen from her cot and my husband has to put everything in context. We have noticed mu bp drops to the lower number in the 50s when i eat, hence I faint and vomit. I have had two cardiac arrests during surgeries 3 weeks apart, a necessiity for a breast lumpectomy. That occasion the anaethastist did cpr the time before I had ear surgery and had paddles. I once had a high profile job, and a full life now I don t feel I contribute to society and I know my kids think their mum has gone. People think its just a bit dizzy, it is not its life changing. I struggle with deafness. My husband left and divorced me as a spastic his words, it was not what he signed up for. As I previously flew all over with my job, had company accounts at best hotelm best cars etc. apparently that was my worth. I will not take my life whilst my parents who are in their 90s are in my care, mum has dementia and cannot cope if she cannot see me. I recently holidayed with a very close friend who is an IT Nurse, she was horrified at my lack of care, which I think is OK. She is concerned I am malnourished inspite of not wasting away I am onlu just over 7 stone and 54 post menopausal. Apart from the sickness, fainting I feel like self harming and putting a knitting needle in just to open the canal and see of I can stop the tinnitus. Thank you for listening to me Georgina Stanton