My son is 39 years old and suffers from schizophrenia. He is always depressed wanting to hurt people. He believes that he should honor satan and should help him by destroying everything he has. He is always feeling guilty about something and looks for ways to go to jail. He is afraid of success, he is very bright and is a programmer, but he never finishes anything. He likes to program video games and writes beautiful music. My question is. Where can we find a psycho therapist who would be willing to help my son with his thinking disorder. He has been on medication for years and seems to be getting worse. Three days ago he was in real bad shape. He was depressed and wanting to go to jail. I took him out to dinner and driving back home he said, mom please take me to the police station or I ll hurt you right now. I believed him by his expression, so we stopped at the police station. The moment we went in, he grab me by the throat and started yelling, Get a policeman right now or I ll kill my mother. Long story short, he ended up in the hospital where he is right now. Not the first time, but maybe the 100th time. Do not know what else to do. I guess is just one more attempt to find help. I am a Christian, I pray first for guidance, then follow God s lead. He led me to you.