Hi there ~
What you are feeling regarding not being able to verbalize emotions is a very common symptom of psychiatric illness. More over, you seem to be distressed about the whole situation. It is understandable that you have had a high degree of tolerance all your life, however that is not being the case lately. You seem to want to talk about your feelings with your fiancee and it makes perfect sense to do so. Identifying what you want to talk about so that you broach the subject and then take it further by using circumstantial statements is one way to go. You may also have some anxiety
surrounding the whole situation of expressing yourself, in which case you should consult a psychiatrist
. Relaxation strategies, yoga
, pranayama and meditation
also help along with regular exercises.
I hope this helps. Take care.