Hi and welcome to Healthcare Magic. Thanks for your question...
I understand that you have been going through a tough time. It must be very difficult to face these stressors one after the other. But please remember that this is just a passing phase in life and if you seek professional help and stay positive, you will soon be able to overcome these depressive feelings.
So, you need to seek professional help for your depressive feelings and suicidal thoughts. There are effective treatment options - in the form of medication or counselling
which will help you overcome your problems. So, please consult a psychiatrist
at the earliest. Also, please keep talking to someone close (a relative or a friend) about your difficulties and feelings. It will help you offload some of your burden at least and make you feel more supported.
Wish you all the best.
- Dr. Jonas Sundarakumar