Question: I am crazy confused bc I have asked my question of how long will cocaine stay in your system if you're randomly tested at your pain management Doctor who sends his test to an outside lab. I get a different answer EVERY TIME I ASK!! My appointment is tomorrow morning because I only see him every 2 months. I did this over Mardi Gras (dumbest thing I've done in my life not to mention embarrassing). I'm having major major major panic attacks because my appointment is at 9am tomorrow. I know I broke my contract and frankly just fucked up! I'm human…what do I do? How long is cocaine detectable? The metabolite detectable? Why do I have different answers every time I ask the doctors on here? I know it's probably bc y'all look down on me, but I'm a very honest person. He hasn't sent me a letter of discharge. If I'm the one who broke the contract, will he just let me withdraw after I've been on morphine and lortab and klonopin dor upwards of 9 years? I'm truly having major panic attacks and my husband wants me to go to the ER. NOT HAPPENING! I'd love a straight answer and help being that this "moment of truth" is happening at 9 am. Thank you

Does my doctor HAVE to drop me? I'm clearly going to fail. This is the first and only time I've ever had this issue. I have a lot going on, which I'm sure you hear often. I found out my mother has breast cancer, she's having a double mastectomy on Wednesday, my husband of 15 years left me, anddddddd now I'm probably going to have no doctor. So do they HAVE to drop you? Or is it up to their discretion?
I did it Saturday night and was tested on Wednesday afternoon and he doesn't even bother testing in his office. Everything is sent off. You also didn't answer my question about the withdrawals. Can he drop me with no meds since clearly I'm the one who broke the contract, his trust, and last (but not least) my dignity
So I guess the best thing to do is fess up. I'm not going in there like a dumb ass and saying the test was wrong. I did the crime so undoubtably I'll pay for it as well! I just feel that him letting me go with nothing kinda breaks the oath doctors take, right? I'm not kidding when I say that I'm actually considering suicide. So should I be honest with him about that as well? Should I not go to the appointment
I feel like I'm drowning, but the 2 people I talk to (mom and husband) are no longer an option. I can't even get out of bed. All I am doing is crying. Luckily for me even though my husband is leaving me due to this coke incident he has come back to the house to take care of our 3 kids. He said if I killed myself that he'd rather them not find me. That's the support. Or a threat of going to ER like I'm not embarrassed and broken enough right now. So I'm sorry for dumping my shit on you, but I don't know what to do about the doctor appointment tomorrow.