I've been thinking about death, dying, suicide a lot. I can picture myself doing it. I've lost interest in everything. I'm not sure how I really feel. I'm all over the place at once. All kinds of thoughts too, racing around. Hard to focus too long. One thing I definitely feel is empty. I want to go somewhere in the morning, a hospital I mean, but I don't know where. I guess I could walk in any ER, but that is a huge step. Any suggestion?