Well I m chronically sick an have been for 17 years and still no doctor s can diagnose me.I keep to myself a lot, I don t like being secretive so i thought talking to someone that is online might be better. I think it s because of my mum she ignores how i feel about everything im sick of being in pain my whole life and tcannothe fact that i cant eat anything without getting severe pain in my gal bladder area and then having to have a good dose of morphine. and having to be on crouches and being in a wheel chair because I get very sore and stiff joints. I m sick of feeling really crappy everyday of my life physically and emotionally. My mum just tells me that there s worse off than me and I hate it.. I know that there s way worse and my heart goes out to all them people, but I m still going through a hard time with a chronic illness and to make it worse no one knows what s wrong with me. I ve heard it all some doctors say to me that it s psychological and that I m making it up. I get mysterious bruising on just my legs and arms... I just wake up with them and doctors have said that I m doing it myself. It really makes me mad that they could say that. I know it s been really hard on my whole family. I feel like I owe my siblings something cos I had all like atention growing up and my sister was always gellious and she was dealing with depression and she always blamed me which made me feel worse and my brother he needed my mother he is always a closed book with his emotions he says and acts like it never affected him but if course it has. Now me and my sister are close she has apologised for her blaming me and saying hurtful things to me but I never was hurt with her I knew she wanted more of mums attention and she was having a hard time at school and things weren t great. But I don t know these past few months I ve really let every thing get to me. When I was younger I swore to myself I will never let it get to me and I did sports and joined in with my friends with things even though I was really suffering but now I feel like I m giving up on things. I don t really have a question sorry to waste your time I am meant to see a phycologist i just havent got round to it. I just needed to tell someone how I feel.