I just sleep all of the time. I feel mentally sane. Ive been in much worse situations. However, Im sleeping 18-20 hours a day. I have no motivation to get stuff done. I have a lot of things to do since I am moving to college soon. I just want to get out of this state. I always feel lightheaded. I do have an eating disorder. A lot of professionals just blame all of my symptoms on my ED, however, dont offer any sort of solution. They always say, go to a treatment facility . Ive been in treatment three times since late 2013. I always relapse instantly. Anyways, I just want to do things like a normal person. Why is this so hard for me? Im not on any medication or anything like that, nor do I want to be. Ive had horrible horrible experiences with psychiatric medication. Im supposed to take vitamins, and they help a lot, however, I always throw up when ever I take them because I have to take 13 of them. I dont like eating large amounts of food, so I throw them up (involuntarily) every time. I havent taken them in a while.