Hi, I think I've got a depression problem or some other problem, I have suffered for a long time, I am 20 years old and I self harm, try to commit suicide, isolate myself away for pretty much everyone, turn to drink and sleeping around. I have dreamed of killing myself and ending my life so many times, I've had family problems and as I child I used to run away. I've kept all my problems hidden from my family and friends but they are getting worse and worse and I've been meaning to get some help but I'm scared, I don't know what to do and I haven't any courage, I feel helpless and I tell myself I'm just being stupid and I can handle the situation but I don't think I can. What should I do? Can anyone help?