I am diagnosed anxiety/major depress, I'm 19 and a normal height and weight. Sometimes in my life I have felt like I display very autistic qualities, but my personal doctor does not seem to believe it. I spend my entire day uncomfortable(mainly lack of appealing stimuli) , I feel awkward interacting socially. especially eye contact, and things of the nature, even though I can force myself to do anything because of a valid logical system of processing in my thinking, just it's not as 'natural' to me. I've always been ridiculous at telling lies from truth, intention, intuitive knowledge. My speech pattern recognization has been ahead of my age for about 9 years now. I love shapes, studying patterns, and learning the way mankind describes his sciences. I look at things from a nuetral point of view all the time. always refer to things by their class, not more personal like calling humans 'people.'--- I'm extremely obsessive about learning the shapes of everything that exists in nature and labratories, and how all the fundamental laws govern things. I spend hours zoning in on trying to learn anything about the building blocks of life. I am desperately trying to understand how over 125 different types of sciences work together and explain the entire concept of human life. also I'm obsessed with music, it's always going on in my thoughts. I spend whatever time I'm not studying, by learning my music. One of my earliest prominent thoughts is "Learn all the patterns" for some reason they seem to be the only things that link everything and make things similar.