Hello, I am writing this in hope for some help in what I should do. I was diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder a year ago and was on Paxil, Trazadone, lamictial, and Tramadol. I began the DBT program in the summer which was 6 weeks and completed 4 before stopping. I also at that time stopped my medications cold turkey and have not been on anything since. I just started seeing my psychologist again two weeks ago. I have been smoking marijuana almost everyday since to cope with the depression and other symptoms I have been experiencing. My psychologist believes I am now dependent on Marijuana. I do not know what to do at this point. I sometimes have a great amount of energy and commitment to improving and getting better and then out of no where I feel as if there is no strength to get better. I self injured for the first time in 5 months about 11 days ago and urges have remained to self harm. I have had extreme urges to do drugs including MDMA which I had an addiction to and since recovered from along with other drugs. I feel like I can never get better or be a lively happy person. I don t know what else to do and I am really hoping someone can help me.