hi i am suffering with depression diagnosed by a psychologist, it first started 6 years ago after i had my youngest child, i felt perfectly fine until i had a fear something bad was going to happen to my eldest child while at her dads that thought then quickly turned from being afraid something would happen to her to me thinking and feeling like i wanted to harm her, as the days went on i tried to ignore these thoughts and urges until one night i was feeding my youngest child who was about 1 month old at the time when i suddenly thought your an alien sent here to hurt us this really freaked me out and i felt so guilty, it got so bad i went to see a psychologist who diagnosed me as having ocd, he put me on fluoxetine 20mg per day which in time worked well and ive lived the past 6 years happy and content and able to push any silly or unwanted thoughts out of my mind easily, however in january this year i decided to stop taking the fluoxetine 20mg per day as i felt in control, i felt fine for the first four weeks after stopping them but around the fifth week i hit rock bottom, the thought that i wanted to hurt my youngest child suddenly came into my head whilst having a cuddle with him and since then i keep imagining hes an alien again even though i know this sort of thing does not happen in real life it feels very real to me and im having terrible trouble convincing myself that he is just my little boy whom i love dearly and have a very close bond with, my doctor has now put me on 40mg per day of fluoxetine and for the last few days i have been takin diazepam and sleeping tablets, i just want this nightmare to stop only it feels so real please help