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We understand your concerns
I went through your description. You might be suffering from Ligyrophobia, sometimes known as phonophobia
. It is the fear of loud noises. The phobia is more common in children than in adults. Now a days this is treated as a developmental disorder.
A simple noise phobia is easy to treat, but if other diseases are present such as Asperger's Syndrome to Meniere's disease it could pose difficult. Therefore you need medical intervention. Consult a physician or a mental health professional.
Hope this clears your doubt. Available for further clarifications.