Hi my name is Brianna, I m 20 years old and have a one year old daughter. I m married but my husband is in the military so its impossible for him to ever be home. I have a few issues mentally and I m terrified it s going to get out of hand and start scarig my daughter and I ve never been prescribed a medication that helps without side effects that effect daily life. I have tried anti depressants but they make me suicidal, hallucinate or really fat. I ve tried mood stabilizers but they work the first 2 months and somehow stop. I ve tried buspar which gives me electric shocks and seroquil which makes me too tired to be able to wake up and do what I need to do with my daughter . I m unsure what to look into, I know I have ptsd and thats where my issues stem from, but is there even a cure aside from therapy which I do over the phone? What should I do to take precautions so my daughter doesnt experience what I went through with my mother? I m not sure where else to turn aside from this website. I m not REALLY crazy all the time, but when I lose it I can t bring myself back without being self destructive and I feel like I m about to spiral. I dont know what to do to be the mother my daughter deserves. Any advice ? a pressure point or anything ? I know I sound desperate but I don t know where else to turn .