I have recently become aware that my husband has been mentally abusing my kids and I for 12 years. I have been a stay at home mom during this time making it almost, next to impossible to get out quickly or at all for that matter. My 11 year old son has been displaying unusual behavior and has been feeling like, as he states, a ghost and the behavior began two months ago after I had to cave and let his dad move back in. He just told me about 4 days ago about the ghost like feeling. I know I need to get out but if Im not careful it could end up back firing on me in a form of mental retaliation. Should I take the kids to a shelter or would this only cause for irreversable damage? I have absolutely no means to support myself or my children if I leave and am unable to work due to Chronic Graft verses Host disease from a stem cell transplant for recurring hodgkins disease. I only make 600 a month on disabilty. I kicked my husband out for 11 months but let him back in because we couldnt survive. My other concern is my kids are active in sports at school and the nearest shelter is 45 minutes away. I would not be able to get them back and forth to school. I considered waiting until school gets out but with the recent discovery about my sons feelings it has me me deeply concerned. My children are already emotionally traumatized and unstable due to the fact I have had so many life threatening illneses and I am so afraid one wrong move could be catastophic. Please help I am so confused about making the best decision.