I HAD NECK FUSION SURGERY,C3 TO C7 IN 2004.LEFT WITH BRUTAL PAINFUL STIFFNESS FOR MONTHS,AND IT FELT LIKE MY BACK EVEN HURT STILL,AS WELL AS MY NECK.MY DOCTOR WOULDNT REFILL MY MORHINE AFTER 10DAYS AS HIS NURSE SAID I WAS USING TOO MUCH i NEVER FILLED THE SCRIPT!)...SO I WENT BACK TO MY PAIN MGMT DOCTOR.LITTLE DID I KNOW HE WAS ONE OF THE TWO MOST NOTORIOUS PAIN DOCS IN MILWAUKEE IN 2004...ANYWAY AFTER 6 MONS MY BACK WAS KILLING ME TO SIT,I NEEDED BACK THERAPY,THEN LOWER LAMENECTOMY I YEAR LATER( AT LEAST I KNEW I WASNT CRAZY)....IT DIDNT HELP,MY BACK STIL HURT.SO PHYS THERAPY FOR 4 MOS, I WENT BACK TO WORK AFTER 1 YEAR,AND MY BACK AND NECK HURT OFF AND ON BAD FOR THE NEXT 1 AND 1/2 YEARS.JUST AS THEY WERE GETTING TOLERABLE MY WORK GAVE ME THIS STUPID TINY LITTLE TILTING TABLE TO ASSEMBLE THAT WOULD HOLD MY WORK AT A 30 DEG angle to my face,SO I DIDNT HAVE TO BEND MY NECKAND BACK TOO MUCH( INSTEAD OF JUST NOT GIVING ME THIS NEW ASSIGNMENT REBUIDING THESE $200 CHEAP GREAZY LITTLE HARD DRIVES)...SO BY NOW I KNEW MY COMPANY WAS DOING EVERYTHING TO GET RID OF ME,AND TRYING TO MAKE ME HURT MORE.
I TRIE TO DEAL WITH IT BUT FOR SOME REASON,MOST OF THESE THINGS WERE NOT WORKING AFTER I REBUILT THEM.SO I WAS LOSING IT ,I COUDNT GET ANYTHING DONE,I DIDNT KNOW WHY MINE WERENT WORKING,AND SUDDENLY MY BACK AND THEN NECK STARTED KILLING ME AGAIN AFTER I REALLY STRUGGED TO PUT TOGETHER THIS NEW MINI "TILT" TABLE.I COULDNT WORK LIKE THIS AT ALL,HAD BACK AND NECK EXAMS AGAIN AND NOTHING NEW SHOWED UP,AND NOW MY PAIN DOCTOR WILL NOT! I MEAN WILL NOT GIVE ME A WORK EXCUSE ,HE EXPECTS ME TO WORK LIKE THIS!
SO THIS WAS MID 2008,I FIGURE HE LOST MOST HIS MONEY IN REAL ESTATE AND STOCKS,HE THINKS IM A DRUG ADDICT BECAUSE THE OXYCONTIN HE GAVE ME ISNT HELPING ALL MY PAIN;
IM READY TO KILL HIM AFTER ALL HE PUT ME THRU AND NOW WONT HELP ME
I WENT TO TWO NEW DOCTORS TRYING TO GET HELP,THEY WOULDNT TOUCH ME,LUCKILY MY PRIMARY DOCTOR PUT ME ON WORK RELEASE,AND ANTIDEPRESSANTS OR I WOULD HAVE LOST MY 27 YEAR JOB,FAMILY,EVERYTHING.I FINALLY FIGURED OUT MY DOCTOR HAD ME ADDICTED TO HEROIN PILLS( OXYCONTIN);I WENT ON PERMANENT DISABILITY AND LOST 80% OF MY INCOME,MY HOUSE,OUR BEST CAR,EVERYTHING VALUABLE WE SOLD TO SURVIVE.I STILL HURT BAD AT TIMES AFTER REHAB.
I CANT GO FOR MODERATE WALKS WITHOUT MY BACK HURTING,I CANT LOOK DOWN TOO LONG WITHOUT MY NECK HURTING BAD;BUT NOW I CAN TOLERATE IT ,AND ADJUST WITHOUT IT KILLING ME FOR A LONG TIME.I DONT KNOW IF ILL EVER BE ABLE TO WORK GAIN MORE THAN REAL PART TIME AT MY PACE,AND IF SOC SECURITY DISBILITY CUTS ME OFF,ILL HAVE TO LIKE IT OR NOT. I HAVE BEEN ON
METHADONE FOR 3 YEARS NOW TO KEEP ME OFF OXYCONTIN.BUT..WITHOUT METHADONE,I FEEL
WEIRD ACHES,AT TIMES,ABDOMEN,BACK,NECK;AND SINCE THE NECK AND BACK SURGERIES,I GET SEVERE BURNING PAIN IN MY TOP RT THIGH SKIN;LIKE ITS ON FIRE,IF MY FEET GET COLD I GET A RT LEG CRAMP THAT FEELS LIKE MY RT LEG IS GOING TO BREAK IN HALF.THESE HAVE BEEN PRETTY RARE LATELY THANK GOD,BUT WITHOUT METHADONE I FEEL LISTLESS,LETHARGIC,LACK OF APPETITE,SLEEPING REAL MUCH FOR DAYS...LIKE WALKING DEAD..VERY SIMULAR TO OXYCONTIN WITHDRAWL,BUT NOWHERE NEAR AS SEVERE
IS THIS JUST WITHDRAWL,IF SO HOW LONG DOES THIS LAST?
I AM ACTUALLY AFRAID THIS IS JUST ME REALIZING HOW MY LIFE PASSED ME BY BECAUSE OF ALL THIS CRAP.IM ALMOST 60 NOW,WHERE DO I GO FROM HERE,WHY START OVER WHEN IT IS OVER RIGHT WHEN IM READY TO BEGIN A CAREER ANEW....