hey, my name is tisha and i m a final year graduate for MANIT. i had an relationship from past three years which recently broke up two months back.we both are together since first year our relationship was fine till 5 months then after that some small isues started arising and we use to have fights over them. in feb 2008 we had a fight on the issue that was concerning our common freind and i didn t tell him about something related to him he got angry and fought telling me that you are my girlfriend if there is something you know you should be the first one to tell me i shouldn t hear it from other people. it s want called trust and you broke it. So before valentines day we fought and were not talking in due course of time i spook to a senior of mine i had a slight crush on that guy and after talking i came to know he also liked me so we started talking and my boyfriend (divansh) he got to know about this from various sorces. when initally we stated dating it was just because of the reason that he wanted a girlfriend in collage who is hot but by the time he came to knew that i was talking to this senior of mine he realised he love me and didn t wanna loose me. so to keep me with him he did every damn thing possible slit his hand acted that he has lost memory and all that he went against his friends who also fought that i was at fault as i chated on divansh he left everyone to be with me he gave me 24 hours of his day didn t study was talking to me throught the day 24x7 just to convience me to come back and be with him. i was ultimately convienced but he wanted to loose his fear of looseing me in future so he made me get physical with him i did it because of my guilt of the fact that he faced all this memory loss and all because of me. after that 6 months ever very good but then suddenly he again started ignoring me he loved me but didn t had time for me he use to go drink with his friend go out with his friends play online game but the moment i use to ask him to come and meet me he didn t had time. At that moment i did nt had any friend my only source of talking was him and when he too bevahed like this i feel shattered. he use to tell me that you should feel satisfied i m with you why do you want to meet me or go out with me i love ou and we should have a stable relationship where i know you are always there and i m always there for you. but he never understood the fact that how lonely i was i didn t had any company no girls in hostle were my friends after the senior s incident. so then there was i friend of mine called varun he is from different collage we met in one of our annual convention. we started talking online and exchange no. then we talked on phone and i use to share things about my relationship with divansh and the way he doesn t understand me. by this time my fights with divansh were normal and pretty frequent on various reasons one day it s something the other day it s something else. finally divansh decided to take me to a trip as he realised that things are getting weird between us it was his class trip and i m not in his class. so he managed all the things alone for making me a part of that trip. that trip was moment of a life time. we both were so happy after that trip it was last year nov. but then in dec i had to go on the annual convention where i earlier met varun unfortunately it was conducted in his collage itself this year. i was reluctant for going as somewhere i was having a negetive inctinct about the trip as i knew that i had nil interaction with the people who were going from my collage. so there i spend time with varuns group and it became an issue pramod got to know about this from others. people infact told him that i spend a night with varun which was not at all true. divansh didn t even listen to me and broke up with me now he says that he has lost all the feeling for me but i deperately want him back i feel guilty for what i have done and he also blame me for all this. plz help me thorugh this because i don t want to loose him.