im bipolar, and am not takeing my pills because they make me very tired all the time and when i sleep when on them i can sleep for up to 16 hours, there supose to help and they do but they affect my life work wise. the pills are called seroquel xr. i am haveing thoughts of killing myself, but i wont because i know its not normal. im also haveing memory flash backs of things that ive seen in the past, im blameing myself for them, witch is makeing it worse. im not going to do anything crazy so no worrys of that, i just want to know if there is some way i can stop whats going through my head, i have seen a few doctors in the past but i find they just push pills at me instead of trying to figure out why i blame myself. i just want to know if there is some way i can take to deal with this other then pills? please i cant sleep at all my mind is raceing and i have work in a couple of hours