Dear takky, welcome to hcm.
I can understand the level of frustration and guilt which is surrounding your inner consciousness and the amount of regrets ur upto.
At this moment of time, there's definitely a need of a person to share ur feelings and the mental tensions ur undergoing.
I kindly suggest You to get a confirmatory test by way of Tri-dot for HIV
and a thorough screening later. Kindly dont be under the impression that all ur symptoms are just because u've contracted HIV and u've been suffering from AIDS
there a huge number of NGOs' who are doing a great job apart from the doctors in this regard and I suggest You to kindly take their help to ged rid of ur anxiousness and for your moral support.