welcome to health care magic family,
I well understand your problem,your depression
becomes chronic so you have to take anti depressant
for pretty long time.
There is no short cut for your problem as you go to priory witch,cbt witch.
You develop self confidence and make your mind strong.
Leave negative thinking and be positive in life,read good books.
Enjoy with various entertainment like tv,movies.
You contiue medicines given by your psychiatrist
You do counseling with psychologist
your future is bright and welcomes you at your door step.
Bye and take care.