Hi there ~
I understand your concerns. Having homosexual thoughts during this time is unusual. It may be that you are bisexual, however this is somewhat unacceptable in some societies. You also mention that you had a boyfriend for 6 1/2 years and dated only women before that. Please clarify your thoughts by visiting with a psychiatrist
or a psychologist
that may be able to help. Wish you the best.
Take care and have a lovely day!