Dear Jagpal Dave,
Hi! The best part of your problem is that you really want to solve it and come out of it. From the description that you have given, it appears that you seem to be suffering from an adjustment disorder
bordering on depressive disorder. If you leave the previously mentioned medical jargon, you have developed a psychiatric condition, a minor one though, which surely needs some psychiatric help. A supportive psychotherapy
will surely help in relieving your problems. I recommend that you should soon get hold of a psychiatrist
and start seeking some help.
There is no reason to delay, if you already have made some suicidal attempts. Hope I am able to solve your concerns.