Yes my name is Kara I live in Tulsa Oklahoma I am 43 years old and I don't even really know where to begin on my questions so I'm just going to put out a little bit of a time as far as the information first it started with I found out I had lupus when I was 25 and then at 29 I was paralyzed from rhabdomyolysis from the neck down for 6 months didn't fully walk again well without crutches for a year my bipolar manic depressive I have pseudoseizures from PTSD and also have Interstitial cystitis and I lied one more thing my main problem and questions are about I've been taking off all my pain meds anxiety meds about 2 years ago it nearly killed me I nearly died I lost 40 lb was in and out of the hospital I nearly died they just cut me off my main question is what can I do for pain management I've had eight suicide attempts in my life because of pain and can't handle it anymore and I've also been feeling suicidal lately I don't know how much more of this pain I can deal with and I guess my question is what can I do to get across to these doctors these days when someone really actually needs their pain medicine tastes like you're supposed to and deserves and to take it and needs it I want to know what I need to do and I'm also going through menopause 20 years early I literally don't think I can mentally or physically handle another day I need help