Hi, I ve been wondering about this for over half a year now and I have not told anybody except for a best friend who is also my lover.. I ve been searching over the internet for anything that i could be experiencing. I live at home with my Farther who leaves at 6 am and returns home anywhere from 3pm to any later then the next day. When he is home we don t speak. I find it difficult to make conversation with anyone in general. I get shaky and feel like burtsing into tears when anyone even greets me with a Hello . I feel very loanly and I ve started seing things from the corner of my eyes. I ve had experiences with alot of night mares and sometimes I wake up moody, as if I could go on a rampage and break everything, but then I ll sit down and have a think about and feel like burtsing into tears again because nothing seems real- Once I locked myself in the bathroom for about 2-3 days because I thought there was someone waiting behind the door ready to stabb me. I have abit of a fear of Windows, during the night and of closed doors. I hide all this frm everyone around me. People call me the girl that never crys . I feel so depressed and the only thing the internet tell me is that I may have an anxiety disorder .. That makes me feel so stupid and really freaks me out. I just would like to talk to someone who can help me work this out for abit, I don t exactly know if i would have an anxiety disorder, but everything seems to link to it. Can someone please tell me if I have an anxiety disorder or not, or if it s just something every teenager goes through. Thankyou, Jael.