Abused as child, female 21 year old, been torturing my breasts/nipples as in extreme torture, needles/nails/skewers/clamps/suspension by breasts/staple gun/etc. is this part of PTSD ? where can i find treatment for this? Ive been in and out of mental psychiatric hospitals since early adolescent years. Ive also been afraid that the helpers will shun me because of my odd behavior. it s just a way for me to feel the pain i went through as a child, and cutting. ANY advise will be greatly appreciated.