I am so sorry for what you are going through. I know how you feel. I am back and forth from hospitals with both my mother and father. Neither are going to be around much longer and my dad wont even go to a hospital now because he comes out SICKER than when he went in. It's been a really terrible and frustrating time and doctors have screwed them up royally. I can honestly say their errors have made them as sick as they are. It's going to be a very difficult, draining and stressful time for you if you pursue your claim. You will not come out unscathed and I understand how you feel. I can only say do what you feel you need to but you should not sacrifice your life or health over such a loser. For every one you knock out there is another waiting in queue. I'm sorry for your loss. I hope you find a good man and have a lovely family and love them to smitherines. They will give you enough love (and you them) to get you through. We can't, unfortunately, control the things that happen in this world. I know you will be a good mother and advocate for your children, knowing all that you know now. Maybe all this tragedy will be for some reason in future, something you can't see now, but it will make you that much more stronger and wiser as a wife and mother. Your children will love you for it. But you do what you feel you must. It will be a long haul and you just need to pace yourself and take care of yourself along the way if you do decide to go that route. It will be a full time job. I've watched others go through this and frankly I didn't think it's worth it for what it turned them into but they DID do it for money, and nothing is worth all that. And believe me I haven't taken any of this lying down. I push and push and push for tests, for results, get second opinions etc. etc. but it's just the system and red tape and nothing you can seem to do. No matter how hard you try, there's always something overlooked and something that comes too little too late or some other complication and it just never ends. If I was your mom or your dad, I wouldn't want you to ruin the rest of your life over something that's done now. I would want you to be happy. Life is short and make the most of it and honour your parents with your deeds and how you live your life...not in seeking revenge. Try if you must but I'm just worried it will destroy you and then that ass will have made victims of you all. Just make sure you set a limit and a spot where you will stop if you do pursue it and dont let it consume you.