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You are suffering from Bipolar Disorder
which is a Psychiatric condition. If not treated at the earliest it will ruin your family. Get a Psychiatric help. Visit a Psychiatrist
and address your problem to him. Yo need medications and counseling. Quit drinking or using illicit drugs if you do, stay away from unhealthy relationships. Moderate, regular exercise can help steady your mood. Working out releases brain chemicals that make you feel good (endorphins). Get plenty of sleep, if you have insomnia
, speak to your Doctor.