Dear Welcome to HCM We understand your concerns I went through your details. I suggest you not to worry much. I hope you understand onanism means masturbation habit. Masturbation is no sin and in fact healthy. Masturbation cannot be the reason any sort of health problem unless you overdo it. Overdoing means doing it at least 14 times a week. From the description, I cannot read much, and therefore diagnosis may not be possible. Please be more descriptive. If you require more of my help in this aspect, Please post a direct question to me in this website. Make sure that you include every minute details possible. I shall prescribe the needed psychotherapy techniques which should help you cure your condition further. Hope this answers your query. Available for further clarifications. Good luck.