Hello and welcome to Healthcare Magic. Thanks for your query.
I understand that you are distressed by your sexual problems. Regarding your first problem of your penis being bent, you should understand that some degree of curvature or bending is normal and harmless. However, sometimes, excessive bending can occur due to a problem called Peyronie's disease. For this, surgical intervention is the only effective option.
When a male is very sexually aroused and gets a strong erection, often there is a discharge of one or two drops of clear, watery fluid. This is called preseminal fluid and this is not semen. It is meant for lubrication of the penis during sexual intercourse. Once the penis is further stimulated by intercourse or
masturbation, then ejaculation of semen happens during orgasm. So, having a preseminal fluid discharge is a normal physiological phenomenon and you don't have to worry about this.
In case you are also suffering from
premature ejaculation, then, to increase the ejaculation time, you can try practicing certain exercises like Kegel's exercises or techniques like the Masters and Johnson technique. Alternatively, there are medication like
Dapoxetine available which can help delay ejaculation time.
Regarding you doubt about married life, you have mentioned that you have homosexual tendencies and have had sexual contact mostly with males. So, you need to think seriously whether you are attracted to females and whether your homosexual tendencies would result in problems after marriage.
Wish you all the best.
Regards,
Dr. Jonas Sundarakumar MBBS., DPM., MRCPsych.(U.K.)