I am a 62 year old male. I had a test today that showed a growth on my bladder, it look dark in color and shaped like a spade in a deck of cards. I have a urine catheter in i have not been able to void without it. in my history i used street drugs and consumed a lot of liquor and smoke. I am drug and alcohol finished! what is my diagnosis and is it too late for me to have cleaned myself up, I m a big boy give it to me straight, the truth shall set me free.