Hi, I've been suffering from a unknown mental disorder that's affecting my life. I kept searching on different disorders and I found a couple that sounds very close to mine symptoms. First off let me tell you a little bit about myself. When I was born I had hearing issues, couldn't hear and lost a vast amount of learning. When I got my adenoids removed I started eating as could taste food, I also had surgery and got tubes in my ears. Always had problems with my hearing. I was mis diagnosed with ADHD and was on three different medications which didn't work. Later I found out I didn't have that I just had a learning disability but as I have problems with that I still feel something is wrong with me. I always hit myself in the head or arms and legs. I had a sleep problem ever since I was a baby. Slept during the day and stay awake at night. It doesn't matter what I do to change my schedule I still can't change it around. When I was 14 I was attacked and hit in the face with brass knuckles which caused a traumatic event which I can't forget. Doctors told me I have PTSD but I think I have more that that as well. I have suicidal thoughts and I self harm, hit myself, cut my arms. I have an impulsive behavior in masturbating as I do it daily. I have daily episodes of anxiety and depression. I have difficulties controlling my emotions and do know how to act on them. I feel misunderstood, neglected, alone, empty and hopeless. I have intense anger issues that result in me being weird with people. If someone gets me mad I act weird and laugh out loud like a crazy clown. I throw fits and punch my head or slam it on the wall or if I'm laying down the couch. In school I had a hard time concentrating, I got distracted easy, I had a hard time making friends. I never had a girlfriend. No sex, nothing. I'm 22 now. I see weird things from time to time like a cat that's not suppose to be there or a person walked by me and there's no one. I never could get a job or stay in something I liked. I just recently got everything done for college. Went for one week and dropped all my classes because I wanted to walk across the United States. If you can please tell me what's wrong with me and if I need medical attention and medicine. I kept reading different disorders and this really resembles borderline personality disorder which I have. Please please help me. I don't know what's wrong....